Tuesday, July 22, 2008 @ 11:17 AM boy u really broke my heart this tym.. im damn affected by wat's happening recently... i dun wanna be like this.. why issit that up till now u're still having such a huge impact on me.. watever u do, watever u say.. ur attitude really affects me.. first u throw me to die alone.. now u leave me hanging in the air.. im scared.. really scared.. my appearance seem im alright.. but boy i tell you.. im not... everytime i see couples talking so sweetly nnd all, im experiencing a sharp pain thru my heart.. do u noe how terrible that feeling is?? maybe u dun.. u indulge urself with work all the time.. u have no time to see how loving other couples are.. nnd everytime i wanna talk to u abt our stuff, u pull ur friend in to help u analyse the situation... does ur friend really noe wats going on?? as in how we treat each other?? EVERYTHING!!! even if he/she noes.. doesn't he/she noe that he/she cant help our prob cus the ultimate decision still lie with us?? only we ourselves noe best how we feel.. true, u may wanna ask for advice cus normally u wld think u made a wrong decision.. but why must ur friend be the one to help you decide?? afterall, u run ur life.. not others.. im not objecting you to asking for advice.. but based on one person's view cant help to decide.. cus people got different perspectives.. u get what i mean?? u noe how i feel?? the way u look at me everytime i see you.. its very torturing.. i cried ytd.. in the mrt on the way home.. people looked.. i din care- my eyes went teary in the bus today.. the way i try to hold back those tears.. its tough!! there was this sourish feeling in my heart.. sometimes i wonder.. how come i wld lose my bf all of a sudden?? i mean.. really .. its illogical! u reading my post now?? i hope not. u wld think im childish.. im nonsensical, or even sentimental... but yes.. i have to admit.. i still love nnd miss you greatly..
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HEARTS❤