Sunday, September 14, 2008 @ 9:03 PM tmr gonna meet clique at the airport to send jonathan off to Hong Kong. u noe, i've been doing alot of thinking these days. ever since those holidays started... do i really need him?? or is he jus another passerby in my life? i dun wanna end up like the past, hating all my ex(s)- its always so difficult to choose. even for ytd, i bought my top, i had difficulty choosing whatever colours suits me. so, am i not cut out for decisions? look, i promised ppl i won't be sad whatsoever. im not thou, im jus thinking how difficult i made my life out to be.... like only for me. what for i make myself sad when i think of the past? true, i still think over my past relationship. but i no longer cry. its like, i miss the memories we had tgt. he used to love me, care for me, pamper me... now? the moment we see each other is like we've seen some ghost... trying to avoid each other. im not saying whoever i brk up with cant be my friend. even zibin became my friend. so why cant you, ANDY LIM CHANG JIE??? wats wrong with you?? i've really no objection for being friends with you.. u made everything complicated. not me. since day 1 i told u, u're not a simple person. whereas for me, i am. a simple girl with a simple mind.. u keep having the mindset that break ups are the unluckiest thing in this world. so u have to avoid. take the day my mum went to bata to look at shoes as an example... wat did u do upon seeing us?? u walked away, not even serving us. if it were me, i'll take it like u're like other customers. i dun bear grudges. i noe u won't. but u made it out to seem u did. im not blaming you. i noe u far too well. yes, we avoided eye contact. but look at the brighter side of life pls. jus like me, walking past bata at tyms. i did not think dat, oh, u're working there, so i have to avoid that place... nnd yeah. even if i avoided that place, it means one thing. i dun wan my friends to bring up our pasts. cus i dun wanna be reminded of it. i jus wanna continue this life i have now. ok? so yeas. if u happen to be reading my blog, dun feel offended watsoever. im jus voicing out how i feel. if need be, u can reply me via tagboard or sms. alrights, enough of that... yupps~ ytd went to white sands to meet natasha dear. photos will be uploaded later. i love her k?? she went to coffee club to eat with me. had crepe champigon, strawberry chocolate blend nnd pumpkin soup. i wiped out the soup, crepe champignon but not the strawberry chocolate blend. natasha wiped out the strawberry passion soda, crepe champignon but not the pumpkin soup.. hahas~ billed- $46++ meaning $23++ per pax. me alone. ate such expensive dinner. hahas~ walked ard. bought my top at C.O.A.X ( the place i used to work at ) hohoho~ got it at 30% disount, amounting to $13.10/- lols~ love it lots lots. mum loved it too. suppose to return to park view to watch my bro's wushu performance. but seeing that there are so many strangers, we backed out.. went back to white sands to continue our shopping. had my rum nnd raisin chocolate truffle at coffee club again... natasha nnd i started to camwhore again. retarded- but yeahs~ i guess that explains why i love her so much(: bus'ed home in bus 3... many many ppl!! squeezed up the so crowded bus. nnd joked ard.. lols~ she noes wat i mean.. home'ed. slept. as for today, stayed home the whole day.. really rotting. mum went to hospital to visit grand-daddy. daddy had a wedding dinner to attend. so i had to stay in pasir ris nnd rot with my sis!! but more or less it was ok.. tv'ed with her. hahas~ yeahs~ lols~ tmr wake up early!!!! goodnights(:
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